The Alley by E^ST: song of the moment. Whilst it’s pretty raw and a little intense, we share some similar tones at the moment.
The ‘F’ word. No, not that ‘F’ word; the other one. The one that tends to stop us in our tracks the moment we feel like we’ve got it all together, for once. Or maybe that’s just me? I’ve sky-dived in the Swiss Alps. I’ve performed in front of 2,000 people. I’ve done a few things that would be deemed ‘SCARY’. Yet, these are not the things I am really afraid of. The truth is, there is so much ‘UN-scary’ about the things that I would do if I didn’t have this incredible, sometimes-irrational/all-the-time ridiculous fear circulating around.
I feel slightly unsteady today (can you tell? haha). Kinda unsteady in a ‘2 steps forward, 15 steps back’ way. I debated whether to even write up this entry for FEAR of who might see it. The ‘F’ word comes in so many different guises too – frustration, anger, sadness, anxiousness, unsettlement and just straight up dread. Perhaps I’ve just got Sunday-itis? Monday morning will make things better when I get back into routine and get distracted once more, I’m sure.
And then next Sunday I’ll be back at the start again – frightfully sprinting away from what I keep running from. Myself. No crazy monsters, no person with an axe, no dare-devil stunts. Just me.
Mondays are a wonderful day to start again.
Paris – Little Dragon
Wow. Hold a press conference – I’m back from being crap for a bit! I’m not going to lie; I’ve felt guilty about not updating this however, in my crazy world, the time just hasn’t seemed right. Coupled with the fact that I couldn’t really ‘nut out’ exactly how I was going to tackle the updating, content seeking or just plain commitment, things with the ol’ blog just weren’t happening. But they are now. Pretty convenient as I’m currently on Term 1 school holidays which makes for good updating time!
I’m in the process of getting my thoughts together – I have a few things to say regarding the #2015 (exciting!) and just general ‘rad day out’ stuff to share.
For now, I’m dreaming.